Tomorrow morning the kids and I head home for the summer. Seems weird since it’s already mid July but as the kids only finished school at the end of last week, we’re just getting started. For 5 glorious weeks, we’ll be home. As always, it will be chaotic, but it will be worth it.
Every year our schedule is a work in progress. The first years we were away, I would schedule out every moment of every day, weeks in advance of the trip. It was exhausting. But then last year, I decided that beyond anything travel related, I would not make any plans. And it was amazing how much more relaxed I was. Funny how being away for so many years and it still takes time to figure out the best way to “visit” home. This year is no different as my schedule is already rather travel intense with 2 wedding weekends (bachelorette and wedding) that both involve travel, a 40th birthday in DC, a few days in Newport with my mom, plus all the day trips we have planned. I’m tempted to google map the summer just to see how many miles I rack up and to where.
But with the all the travel and the intense schedule, the summer is also incredibly draining. In a good way of course. This is not a vacation for me but a chance to connect with as many people as I can in a very short period of time. I won’t get to see everyone and someone always ends up disappointed, including me. But I do the best I can with the time I have and fight through the exhaustion that tends to creep up on me quickly. It’s worth it to get home, be with my peeps and spend as much quality time as possible with them. There are never enough hours in the day to do it all 😦
Once again Josh will be joining us for about a week this year. Last year was the first time he’d been on US soil with us since we had left back in January 2010 (since he would normally travel home for work a few times per year and add a few days for visiting then). And it was such a spectacular week having him there with us. The kids and I often have our own routine in the summer and I was concerned if he’d put a bit of a crimp in it, but having him there made it all the better and I’m really looking forward to the week that he’s there with us this year. We’ll really miss him during the 4 weeks that he’ll be here in the Netherlands until he arrives in Boston.
Even though we are going to be super busy, I’m incredibly excited to get home. It’s not a desperate feeling like I had last year when our first year here in the Netherlands was so miserable and I just needed to escape. It’s more like the excitement that I had when we lived in Spain – a chance to get home and regroup. To spend time with friends and family. To be home…
But at the same time, I’m feeling a little bit nervous. Home for me is just that…home. But these days, things have changed there. The change has come over time, I know it’s not something that happened over night. But these last months have been filled with a lot of violence – racial, religious and really, just downright scary. New England seems to be ok these days but you never know. It’s not a fear or concern that is going to prevent me from coming home, but it’s something that will keep me more hyper vigilant to my surroundings.
Regardless of everything, the kids and I are super excited to get on that plane tomorrow and come home!
Knuffels en kussen,